Tony’s Soldiers of Light Sundays™: Don’t Abort the Mission: What to Do When You Feel Like Quitting

Tyrone Tony Reed Jr.
Jul 13
6 min read

There’s a moment in every believer’s life where the fire begins to fade.

You don’t lose your faith—you lose your fight. You’re still praying—but not with passion. You’re still serving—but not with joy. You’re still saying yes—but secretly wishing you could say no.

When that moment comes—and it will—it doesn’t mean you’re weak.It doesn’t mean you’ve failed. It means you're human. But more importantly, it means you’re in a battle worth fighting.

This post is your divine reminder:

Don’t abort the mission. Don’t walk away from what God trusted you with.

You’re not the first to feel this way. And you won’t be the last. But if you keep walking, keep breathing, and keep believing, you’ll see what’s on the other side.

😩 When Purpose Feels Like Pressure

The enemy doesn’t just attack your resources or relationships—he attacks your resolve. He wants you to believe that quitting is easier than finishing.

But here’s what most people won’t say out loud:

Obedience hurts. Faithfulness costs. Purpose feels like pressure—especially when no one sees the weight you’re carrying.

When you said yes to God, you didn’t just accept a calling—you stepped into a war.And some of the most dangerous moments come not when you’re under attack, but when you’re under discouragement.

It doesn’t always sound like, “I quit.” Sometimes it sounds like:

“Maybe I missed God.”
“This isn’t working.”
“Someone else could do this better.”
“I can’t keep holding everyone up.”
“What’s the point if nothing’s changing?”

These thoughts are more than doubt—they’re invitations to abort your assignment.

But today, I declare: Not on your watch.

🧠 Why the Desire to Quit Feels So Strong

You’re not crazy. You’re under fire.

Here’s why that desire to give up feels so intense:

1. You’re Closer Than You Think

The greatest attacks often come right before the greatest breakthrough. The enemy isn’t omniscient—but he sees movement. If your mission was meaningless, he wouldn’t bother.

2. Your Pain Has Accumulated

Most leaders don’t quit from one incident—they quit from years of compound pressure. Unhealed wounds, overlooked sacrifices, and unresolved grief stack up like spiritual bricks.

3. You’ve Outgrown Your Old Motivation

Sometimes the old reasons you said yes can no longer sustain you. God wants to take you deeper—into obedience fueled by love and covenant, not applause or visible success.

4. You’re Battling Isolation

The lie that you’re the only one struggling makes quitting feel justified. That’s why the enemy works so hard to keep us from community and connection.

5. You’ve Been Faithful—But It Feels Fruitless

There’s nothing more exhausting than sowing faithfully but seeing no harvest. But what you can’t see is how deep the roots are growing.

📖 When God’s Servants Wanted to Quit

You’re not alone. Even spiritual giants nearly walked away.

🔥 Elijah – 1 Kings 19

After calling down fire on Mount Carmel, Elijah expected revival. Instead, he got death threats.

“I’ve had enough, Lord. Take my life.”

Elijah lays down under a broom tree—not to sleep, but to die.

And how does God respond?

Not with rebuke—but with rest.

He sends an angel with food.
He gives Elijah time to recover.
He whispers instead of thundering.

“Go back the way you came…”God doesn’t replace Elijah—He recommissions him.

🔥 Jeremiah – Jeremiah 20:9

Known as the “weeping prophet,” Jeremiah was mocked, beaten, imprisoned, and rejected.

At one point he says:

“I will not mention His word or speak anymore in His name.”

But the Word of God was like a fire in his bones. Even when he wanted to quit, he couldn’t.

When you’ve truly been called—you can’t walk away without part of you dying.

🔥 Jesus – Luke 22:42

Even Jesus, in His humanity, wrestled with the weight of purpose.

“Father, if You are willing, take this cup from Me…”

But He didn’t abort the mission. He surrendered.

“Not My will, but Yours be done.”

He showed us that obedience doesn’t always feel good. But it always produces glory.

⚔️ In the S.O.L.A.D.™ Universe

When Spiritual Warfare Becomes Personal

In Soldiers of Light Against Darkness™, the battles are cosmic—but the struggles are deeply human. Each character faces the temptation to retreat, abandon, or abort the mission. And yet, by the grace of God, they persevere.

🔥 Juanita’s Private War

Before she ever fought demons in battle, Juanita had to fight them in her mind.

In Book I, she is tormented—bound in chains, oppressed by suicidal thoughts, and barely hanging on.

“My head’s full of suicidal thoughts… I’m literally thinking of all the ways I can kill myself and struggling not to do them.”

She was moments from giving up—but she prayed.

“I was praying for Him to keep me in my right mind.”

God answered. Through Kevin’s transformation as Angelo™, she and Jeff were rescued. Not just physically—but mentally and spiritually.

Juanita didn’t quit. Because God sent help just in time.

🔥 Kevin’s Choice in Heaven

In Book II, Kevin dies. He wakes up in Heaven, greeted by his grandmother Isabella. It’s peaceful. He feels safe. But he sees Juanita weeping over his body—broken and begging God to bring him back.

“Kevin, where are you?”

He’s given a choice: stay in eternal peace—or return to a mission filled with pain.

Isabella’s words remind him:

“This is about the souls you are fighting to protect… This is what God planned for you all along.”

Kevin could have quit. He could’ve stayed. But instead he said:

“I’m coming.”

He didn’t choose comfort—he chose calling.

🔥 Jeff’s Shift from Sidekick to Soldier

Jeff never thought he was the hero type. He joked, made light of battles, and felt like the backup guy. But when the pressure mounted and the others needed him, he made a declaration:

“I’m not a sidekick. I’m a Soldier of Light.”

That choice to stand—despite fear—became pivotal.

He didn’t wait to feel qualified.He didn’t wait to feel ready.He just said yes.

🔥 Wiseman J’s Role as the Watchman

Wiseman J isn’t always in the spotlight—but his spiritual insight anchors the team.

When Juanita questioned whether they could win, he gently spoke truth:

“You may not know how, but God does. We stand, even when we don’t understand.”

His quiet persistence reminds us that endurance doesn’t always roar—sometimes it whispers and remains.

🛠 What to Do When You Feel Like Quitting

1. Acknowledge the Ache

Pretending you're okay only delays healing. Be honest with yourself and with God. Journal it. Pray it. Cry it. Don’t mask it—face it.

2. Rest Before You Resign

Elijah didn’t need a pep talk. He needed sleep, food, and time.

Take a break. Unplug. Step away to recharge, not retreat.

3. Revisit the Why

Go back to the moment God called you. Reread your journal. Replay the dream. Reflect on the first “yes.” Remind your soul why you started.

4. Speak Life Over Yourself

Say what God says about you, not what your feelings scream.Declare His Word out loud—until your spirit catches up.

5. Stay Connected to the Mission Field

Isolation feeds quitting. Get around people who remind you of the vision. Who believe in you. Who won’t let you give up.

6. Worship Through the Weariness

Worship doesn’t ignore pain—it surrenders it.

When you worship while wounded, Heaven takes notice.

7. Accept That You’re Not God

You are not the Savior.You can’t fix everyone.You can’t carry the whole weight.But you can be faithful—and trust Him with the outcome.

🧨 Why the Enemy Wants You to Quit

If he can’t steal your salvation, he’ll try to abort your assignment.
If he can’t destroy your destiny, he’ll try to drain your determination.
If he can’t keep you in chains, he’ll try to convince you to chain yourself.